since this shall be my last post while im in perth (for at least a mth) i shall end it good. there's nth much in my life right now to make it bad anw.

im done w my exams and my first sem in uwa! how time fliessss... and im heading home tml. been waiting for this day to come~ how i can spend my hols in sunny (and freaking hot) singapore! home!im in quite high spirits right now. though my rooms half packed and its sucha bother to pack everything.

anw nah i haven turned into another person, another emo kid. any changes i dunno but i pretty much lived the same way as i did... values beliefs and morals and all. any change, i hope its due to me seeing more and experiencng more. im still the same ol' happy-go-lucky ginny.

nostalgia.

how internet connects ppl. i found 2 frens over the last few days! once my primary 1 puppy love or so we call it. haha. omg i cant believe i found him suddenly memories start flowing.. how we used to call each other on the phone everyday. and i rmb his ahma bringing him to sch and we'll meet near the park and we'll walk there. though the park was small we always hung out. he's my first ever fren in primary sch!!! maybe my first ever in my life as well i cant rmb my kindergarten frens. i rmb as primary sch kids we carried bagpacks and sling water bottles ahaha how cute. if i dun rmb wrongly, we did hold hands. cute and gooood memories.

another fren too! ojj~ this was towards the end of my primary sch yrs. we pretty much hung out tgt all the time.. more so in p6. i always stayed back w him after sch hanging arnd sch.. always helping teachers do stuff. esp chen lao shi and chao lao shi. and the thing we loved to do most was to go KFC. ahahahaha hilarious but yes KFC! to eat! or bubble tea! since tt was the craze then. one distinct time was after the pri 5 camp? some adventure camp they call it. rmb we were released arnd morning. and 2 of us still went to KFC to eat after tt with our sleeping bags and big bags of clothes.. haha. i really wonder now whats so gd abt kfc... or it has become our activity tt it was a part and parcel of everyday life. mummy daddy if u read this, now u know why i always took money from u, or din have much savings. anw not digressing.. suddenly im rmb of my pri sch yrs. apparently the best times were the start and end of pri sch. lets leave it tt way.

after reveling in my childhood crushes, its time to go back to packing.. i want to post pics of my half packed room. but net's too slow..
Posted at 10:30 PM

amidst all the colbie caillat, kt tunstall, lenka, taylor swift, lifehouse, the fray, coldplay, leona lewis, alicia keys, jordin sparks, jojo, mraz, daughtry, corinne mae... etc songs im listening to, only one song stands out for this moment. a place in this world. go figure.

long talks are good. words dun really matter meanings dun really matter its the face tts impt. tts a cruc factor. and til this day im still running arnd in this maze full of split ends and dead ends. im constantly trying to find the way. im sure there will be more than one way out. life aint tt cruel to cut everything away. but most parts gonna be done by me. cuz im the one running i carry my legs i carry my body i carry my mind. an uncalculated chance. uncalculable too. my own mind is killing me. irony aint it. this entire week.. secs passing like mins, mins passing like hours, hours passing like days, yet the week passes in the blink of an eye. too much time, think, no time, dun think, study, slack, everythings just topsy turvy. early nights, later mornings, late lunches eary dinners. nth is in place. tts why i cant wait to return to sg. everything seems connected and people expect. go study, me.

inferring and thinking too much abt my words aint good. one-sided words arent always what they seem. meanings are always lost somehow thru typed words.like how msn screws things up. msn is for chats. just chats. casual chats.
Posted at 4:53 PM

the last 2 days i feel like ive been living in a slump.
haven gone down for meals.
sleep night til day and day til night.
not doing stuff i suppose to do.
i just dunno what im doing.

and i dunno why. apologies to friends who keep knocking on my door and get ignored cuz im still slping.

ive still got 3 papers coming up. 3! in 4 days. and im in trouble for them.
and i feel that my neck's gonna break in no time. din get good slp ytd. and my neighbour was making so mcuh noise just now. i understand tt it was 1pm already but.. its 24 hours quiet time~ seriously i just cant wait to get back. call it escape call it avoid. i need a break from 4 mths of life here. exhaustion. frm social life? hall life? maybe just life.

ive been blogging alot. maybe just a way to get away from the studying i have to do and the stuff i have to think.

a place in this world.
Posted at 3:25 PM

ooh just happens tt the few ppl who reads my blog decided to read it the past few days. and of cuz read the previous post. hmm. comments comments. thanks for those i know u guys care.

tt previous post was how i feeel abt myself.. im sure there are lots and lots more i could say. and also lots and lots more abt me i cant say. blind spots they call it? im sure other ppl have stuff to say abt me that ive nv noticed b4. cuz im me and i cant see me. i hope those stuff are good though. whatever it is, i try to portray me as myself in front of ppl. and of cuz i reckon im not a troublemaker or hateful person. right?

ive just finished a paper today. i dunno whether it was easy or i my studying really helped but i got thru it pretty fast. confidence aint it? i hope so. cuz im banking on psyc to get my HD. im pretty much screwed up for the rest. to me its a simple equation tt involves content expectation effort and result. it all correlates. whatever the order.. anw ive got 3 more papers to gooooooo....

random random:
been watching the nobody video by wondergirls. their coordination's awesome and the song's really catchy. heard a recent mrbrown spoof of the video touching on the subject of swine flu. hilarious!~ singapore does have some good entertainment=))

im drinking bubble tea. again. wnba season starts tml. my room is messy. im gonna go jogging by the (really chilly) mat bay tml at 8 with qy. bless me.
Posted at 8:56 PM

lets kick off some randomness in me since i cant talk abt serious stuff without worrying that ppl read it: ive not been studying as hard as anyone. i just had a very expensive supper. i want to go back to singapore. i have enough junk food in the room to make me sick for weeks if i ate them all now. i acty like angry dots in my sentences. im a true libran. procrastinator, guillble, fickle, nice, and what not. i seriously think that not everyone who ace in sch will be good at work and vv. i hope it applies to me im academically uninclined. i believe tt ppl shld nt talk so much abt themselves esp the good pts. if u have it everyone wld see it, if u flaunt it, ure overdoing it that ppl will doubt ur words. actions speaks for itself. i dun like to explain myself. i see no point. u can say loads abt urself but its what ppl think that matters. i love chocolates. and junk food. fat food~ i feel a great need to go to the gym. i dun want to grow fat cuz im studying in aus. i like perth for its emptiness. i dislike crowded places. i always do alot of planning but fail to carry them out. ive become a very straightforward person since i dunno when. and in that ive become not so nice already. in the past i use to take everything lightly and casually, nth can anger me. now a thousand and one things can. i think i can see thru ppl better than others and i thinkim capable of handling ppl. i act blur. sometimes that is the best way of getting out of things. excuses too. i do give excuses. and lie. but tts me. i use alot of tissue paper. i cant stand too dirty but im not skeptical abt being clean. i love to slp. i dream alot. most a times really interesting and fun stuff which i dunno where i get ideas from. im a very practical person. i criticise behaviours. i either like or dun like someone's actions. i do see the good and bad in someone and then judge. im not someone who will do housework if given a choice. i dun like planned schedules and planned life. i like spontaneuos and impromptu surprises. i still cant believe that im receiving overseas eduation. i love my family. mmddzzjk. i do not intend to have pets. no interest in them. i would like to travel arnd the world. tts what everyone says. i dun have to go to every country. i like my life to be exciting. i haven found tt in clubbing yet. yet. i like randomness.

oooh. one more. hugssss for hy hy hy=))
Posted at 1:33 AM

i hate to emo. and i hate to show it out to ppl.
cuz i believe strongly in happiness and that it is easily gotten. for me at least.
but with greater expectations come freaking assholey huge disappointments. wasnt as if those expectations were huge mountains unclimbable. its just the feeling of getting jilted at the last minute that sucks big time. and prob getting cheated a thousand times more.

im nt gonna get pissed. or angry. at anybody, at anything. im just disappointed.
Posted at 9:38 PM

walking down the road with you
i left. cuz i got pulled aside. i allowed myself to be pulled away. my weak mind, my loss of determination, my lack of character. rest assure. for the world will see your greatness. and the opposite in your enemy. no. not your enemy. your friend. for that eternity will never befall. for good will always triumph over evil. what you see is not whats reality. masked by a thick fog created by itself, everyone is blind. yet everyone is willing to stay blind. for the unknowing is not to be blamed. for the unknown is harmless if left alone. change is coming. and so we must believe in the heart, for the heart never lies.

everything perceived has changed.
so you can keep sight.
and give sight.
Posted at 7:45 PM